You should be wondering what I'm going to write now with that title on the top. It's also connected to the name of my blog. People ask me why i kept the name "Just Deep In" for my blog? That's the name of my diary. It's not surprising, isn't it? Girls keep names for everything and anything that's close to their heart.
So... Why have I kept this title? Certain things that's happening in my life right now is not the way i wanted it to happen. Just to share how I feel when I score low in GRE and how my passion -Bharathanatyam, is fading away from me.
Why is it I scored low in GRE? Didn't I practice enough? Or did I loose my concentration? Finding answers to all these questions, I could figure out that to gain something you must loose another thing. So, what did I loose here and what did I gain? I could measure myself with the test, the ability to express my thoughts in words and the wanting to write more and more. My brother would ask me to read books and newspaper. I never did that until 3 months ago when I decided to write GRE. It's not that easy to learn English words in such a short span. May be I found answers to all my questions.
Talking about my passion, it's not only Bharathanatyam but any form of dance. Now that it's only Bharathanatyam, my performing art. Why am I loosing interest? No, it's not the interest as such. When you find politics interfering everywhere, you loose your passionateness. What do I mean by politics here? It's not about the ruling party or the non-ruling party, I mean the relationship with the students and their teacher and the bond with their co-learners. It's hard to tolerate, when you see people who learn art only for the sake of earning fame and not for the love towards it. These incidents really disturb me a lot. Would the world change?
So... Why have I kept this title? Certain things that's happening in my life right now is not the way i wanted it to happen. Just to share how I feel when I score low in GRE and how my passion -Bharathanatyam, is fading away from me.
Why is it I scored low in GRE? Didn't I practice enough? Or did I loose my concentration? Finding answers to all these questions, I could figure out that to gain something you must loose another thing. So, what did I loose here and what did I gain? I could measure myself with the test, the ability to express my thoughts in words and the wanting to write more and more. My brother would ask me to read books and newspaper. I never did that until 3 months ago when I decided to write GRE. It's not that easy to learn English words in such a short span. May be I found answers to all my questions.
Talking about my passion, it's not only Bharathanatyam but any form of dance. Now that it's only Bharathanatyam, my performing art. Why am I loosing interest? No, it's not the interest as such. When you find politics interfering everywhere, you loose your passionateness. What do I mean by politics here? It's not about the ruling party or the non-ruling party, I mean the relationship with the students and their teacher and the bond with their co-learners. It's hard to tolerate, when you see people who learn art only for the sake of earning fame and not for the love towards it. These incidents really disturb me a lot. Would the world change?
7 comments:
hey life's nt a picturesque journey...
its goin to b tuff n it shud b dt way. or else were is de fun.
N choose ur field n b ruthless in it n don bother abt others or wt dey feel abt u. Njoy life in ur own terms.
N i like ur attitude. Dats de rite attitude to go abt any competitive exam. Think of the positives u gaind 4m it rather than the obsession wid de end scores...
well it surprised me when i saw u writing...good work sushmita.. and i'm happy that i can also share ur feelings about ur life....keep on writing...and i'm proud of it...
all d best..
Dont think abt others.
The world never change, but if u started to view it in another way, it may seems to be change.
Came thru ur orkut profile.
Keep posting and dont leave ur passion.
Politics is everywhere... even for a school team selection... if ur the best u can handle it very easily... if not u atleast try to become best.. and if u dont do both of these.. then watever u do is not out of interest!
Politics is the hard truth of life. But Sush let me tell you when we stop doing things for others and do it for ourselves it is easier. Never expect others to recognize your deeds. Have you danced well today? Are you satisfied. Did you give your best? That matters. Not anyhting else. i am telling this so much to myself as I do to you...
Hey, I can understand the reason for ur interest in dance fading away. But remember, the skill of dancing is still with you and it shall never fade away. I know u r a great dancer. Why don't you try looking for another dance teacher instead of sticking around with the same people? Why quit sometin when you termed it as ur 'passion'?
Deep
I love your blog Sush.. You have so beautifully mirrored some sentiments that seem so prevelant in many today..
Don't let politics or anything else stand in the way of your passion because its these dreams that define us and give us a purpose in life.. You are great at it, don't let it go away..
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